title: Leaving..
date: Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Loves,
He's leaving me again back to hometown.anyway for me its a good thing for us also to have some short break.Maybe when we are not being together physically maybe things will turn out good as soon as he's back.or maybe things will change.will never know.
yes i miss him and love him too but at times im just confused and aren't sure or should i say im afraid.but yeah as much as i love to be with him but you know sometimes you really can't get what you really want.it's difficult for me to overcome the fear.but i know definately there is one day you just have to let go.
my dearest zana is leaving to bangkok this coming friday so ya im meeting her tmr after her work for short dinner.yes i've been hiding myself and not letting people know my misery but now i just wanna come out from that shell of mine to really endure all these.
i've been sleeping alot lately and yes i eat less.impressed!exercising do works!push ups and sit up!catching up with my favourite tv series during my off days.super exciting la.having a time own just to feel relaxed and calm.and 2 days later i will be active working again.:)
well thats for today update love.i miss you zana.
title: Changed
date: Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Hi!
Well im feeling kinda low lately and it makes me go mad.i don't feel like going out but just stay in my creepy room on my comfort zone.im sorry zana for not meeting you love but the day that you want me to meet you i was with mom.i read your blog.thank you love.i appreciate it.im fine okay!i love you too..and ya where you get that photos huh!:)nvm.
im trying my level best to be back like how we used to be where by we dont really know the meaning of arguments.now everything is in chaos and im tired.you don't know what you really want..
and yes i agree you've been the greatest bf i've ever had but why is this happening now....
i just which everything would change for better....loves
title: 23:25
date: Sunday, January 18, 2009
Faboulous,
Well after 5 days of doing opening im feeling very exhausted.tired.zombie.the time when i clocked out its already in the afternoon and yet i had to do lotsa stuff.this whole week seems so packed and busy with stuff.last 2 days after work i went straight to wing tai hq which is located at houngang kovan somewhere there uh to paid the fuck shift that i owe..damn!it cost me 200bucks.zana zana zana......me miss you.sorrie for not meeting you for quite sometime cause i've been busy and lotsa stuff that i need to settle.soon im off from everything.
and to boyfriend just to let you know me too are tired of what is happening between us but...still i love u even if the last choice were to let go.
title: Why....
date: Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Faboulous....
Why is it happends at the end of the day.Just because i did not want you to send me till that very end cause you are rushing and you are showing face.if you wanna talk about understanding and stuff i already give in alot to you ok.just because im keeping quiet that doensnt really mean im okay with it.firstly you are always late when we going to meet and you know i hate that but you keeps on doing it.i keep quiet.I had to sacrifice my off day and my sickness just to spent the time with you.yet you dont wanna fetch me and always late.i keep quiet.what else you want from me.how you want me to be understanding???you took up some insurance thingy which i disagree at all but look now you are going all the way to kl to take the test.im okay with it and now you got the opportunities to go further studies but sadly not in singapore somewhere that needs us to be apart.what else you want to say dear?
you know how badly i want to be with you.looks like theres no way now....
im tired to feel alone......im tired.
title: Gift.
date: Saturday, January 10, 2009
Faboulous!
Today i was on mc cause body feeling really weak with fever and heavy flu.went to see doctor and done with it.bedtime stories was awesome.
christmas gift was so suprised.it was an olympus digi cam.hows that?i was shocked plus suprised with the gift.thanks love.appreciate and loving it.so long to own it myself and now i have it!!!!!!!awesome.his was issey miyake perfume gift set.not yet give cause keeps on forgetting.
took medicine and now feeling drowsiness so yeah goodnite people.
title: ooohhhweeee!:)
date: Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Dear fabulous!
well today i don't feel tired thats why at this hour im still here blogging.i called sexylove he wanted to sleep i just cant sleep.done with wash up.anyway just reached home after closing like 20mins ago.
tmr will be meeting sexy.yeah off day tmr but back to work on friday.and oh yeah i have to do my PDP.wow looks easy and interesting on how to really know yourself and how to be a better person.i think im gng to do good and neat.poovan talked to me bout it and explain in details how it works cause this is my first time doing it.i actually can do it now but just kinda lazy uh.brother ask me if i wanna go night safari on 9th.i want to but sad uh im dng closing.:(
okay my darlinks already paid their debt and im rich for a while.really need to do some saving or im doomed!
think kinda done here.toodles!:)
title: Late nites..
date: Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Dearest Fabulous,
Today so laid back.Im off from work.Had zinger for lunch and maggi for dinner.How sad uh.
Till now waiting for phonecall from him.He will be back tmr night.Working tmr closing.I've got nothing to update today as nothing much that is so happening but yet i've enjoyed 90210 series.
so yeah till then goodnites love!:)
title: 06/01/2009
date:
Hi faboulous!
